My boy turns eight years old today. In ten short years he will be an official adult capable of joining the military and voting. He is growing so fast that his clothes only fit for a few months and I’m lucky if he can wear his shoes long enough to wear them out. I was sorting his socks earlier and realized they were almost the same size as my own. If he wanted to, he could wear my t-shirts but I don’t think that would go over well in second grade.
Every Monday, he brings home the previous week’s spelling test with all of the words and bonuses spelled correctly and rarely misses more than one answer on any assignment. He is a voracious reader who likes chapter books, non-fiction and reading Sunday’s comics. He reminds me of myself but is a better student. He has other habits similar to mine as well- he likes to sleep in, doesn’t like sports, refuses to ride his bike (I didn’t learn until 3rd Grade) and is sensitive to teasing. He is protective of his baby brothers and sister and watches out for them even though their arrival royally changed his life as an only child. He is good to them even when they try to destroy his toys and books or bite him (oh he yells but he doesn’t hurt them). I am proud of how well he has grown as a person since becoming a brother. It hasn’t been easy on him watching me take Lily to the hospital over and over again. He worries about his sister and dotes on her even though she has taken so much of my attention away from him.
This year has been somewhat hard on him because of his ear surgery last June. He has another ear operation coming up in November and hopefully his ear will look “normal” after that procedure. He has been living with a half formed ear since he was born but this year he had to return to school with a long Z shaped cut in his head and a dark red skin graph scabbed on half of his left ear. He has been self conscious about it but handled it surprisingly well. I wish I had a magic wand that would make the pain go away while transforming his ear to match the other one and granting him hearing in both ears. Even after his cosmetic surgeries, he’ll never hear out of the right ear. He is used to it and speech therapy took care of any language issues while he was in preschool. He takes it all in stride but I know his lack of hearing makes life a bit harder.
I get annoyed with him, he gets annoyed with me but it never lasts very long. I can’t stay mad at him and it kills me when I have to ground him or send him to bed early. Like most boys, he acts tough but is still soft on the inside. If someone hurts his feelings, he crumbles and my heart aches to see him hurt. As cliche as it sounds, my big boy is still very much my baby and I love it when he snuggles up to me on the couch and puts his head on my shoulder. I look at my two year olds and realize they will be his size in the blink of an eye. I want them all to stop growing, stay young and home with me. I want to protect them and appreciate them even when they are clingy, whiny or cranky but I know they will get hurt and sometimes they will bug the heck out of me. Such is life. I just wish it didn’t go so fast.
Eight years ago, he made me a mom. He made my world much smaller and shrank my ego by making me realize I wasn’t the most important person in my life. I have learned as much from him as I have taught him and I’m lucky to be his mother. Happy Birthday buddy, I love you.